Wednesday, August 24, 2005
2:45 PM
I am bigotted, so what, fuck off, i am everything u will never be!
Not too long ago, i started on an optometry course in SP. Boy, i was so excited. Making hell lots of money. I am so happy. I simply love the lessons, and it gets more lovely as time goes by. I'm enjoying it.
Because our eyes are within ten metres from our stomach, lungs, hearts, balls, blah blah blah, i get to study every wonderful details in my wonderful body. I love it. I enjoy studying new terms that i have never seen before. Some examples are phagocytes, microvilli, pseudopods, squamous, blah blah. Wait, don't try telling me what they are. I know it. Its simple. They are different and varying species of aliens. I know it, i am sure. If i didn't remember wrongly, did i first see them in star wars? Yes, i think so. And just last year there was a great movie that featured these aliens remember? That wonderful movie, AVP. Ateries vs Podocytes. Remember? Yes it was a great movie, showing how Podocytes hunt down Ateries to kill.
K, and a little update of my daily vitamin M intake. This morning in the Mrt i just inhaled a large dose of these wonderful products. A self appointed pharmacist ( whose qualification is forgo-ing his hair wash for a couple of decades ), positioned his hair ball ( with lices bouncing about ) in front of my nose. Boy did he give me a huge prescription with that absolutely over powering odour, oops, sorry, aroma. I need help.
Help me lie. I am so holy, i pray (prey, hahaha) regularly, at regular intervals of once per year, during chinese new year. I think i symbolise happiness. So therefore, i am totally incapable of sinning. I simply cannot lie. So unholy ones out there, please sin on my behalf. Recently, a fren of mine, a work permit holder, wants me to help her open a starhub line. She cannot do it herself cos she is a work permit holder. We r friends and i dun know how to say no. But i never do such favours for people. I am always skeptical whenever bills and money are involved. i am poor. cos it never pays to be good. And sadly, i just cannot help being so good. PLEASE HELP ME CONJURE UP AN EXCUSE TO TELL HER WHY I CANNOT START A LINE FOR HER. Oh ya, by the way, she knows i am 21, and do not have any existing starhub line. So these excuses do not work.
Cannot blame me. I am too tired to monitor such things like whether the bills are paid and going after reminding pple to pay. i got too much on my mind. And, i no longer trust people. Recently i am sad that the only people i dare trust are my parents brother and some close relatives. I know i got good frens ard me too, eg fabian and melvin. They are my next level of trust. I am phobic about misplacing my trust now. But skeptics out there who probably think i am nuts, balls to you! Y should i trust you? have u always been truthful? no no no. there are times where u snigger behind my back, where u do things that u know kills me, but i just did not realise it. Now i am glancing daggers, scrutinising everyone carefully before i let you in into my circle of trust. Circle of Trust. These are the words i learnt from the movie 'MEET THE FOCKERS'. Still remember watching this movie with Dal somewhere in January.
Satanists are the wisest people in the world. Reverend Anton Lavey, founder of the first church of satan, once said: "You cannot love everyone; it is ridiculous to think you can. If you love everyone and everything you lose your natural powers of selection and wind up being a pretty poor judge of character and quality. If anything is used too freely it loses its true meaning. Therefore, the Satanist believes you should love strongly and completely those who deserve your love, but never turn the other cheek to your enemy!"
It sums it all up. Throw your trust freely, and you will reap what you sow. Be prepared for rude shocks that you never before thought possible. Learn to hate. Only hypocrites love and love and love and love, and bullshit. They are so full of shit, god damn it. Learn to hate correctly. This protects you, and the people who genuinely care for you. And for goodness sake, hate genuinely. Dun claim that u know how to hate just so that it makes u happy and your cork stands. Hatred is your best protection. Health messages say that condoms are your next best protection, ever wonder why, ever wonder why something that sells so well in the world is only the next best? haha. cos hatred is then the best. It protects u from bad people, from disappointment, from utter disappointment and confusion, leaves you only with goodness. Ok. laugh at me, that condom part is a lame joke.
K, fiends and felatives, remember to help me think of my excuse to lie. Please reply asap, on my tagboard.
