Wednesday, July 12, 2006
12:09 AM
I am back
Been a long time since i last blogged here... After seeing daniel's blog, i thought of updating this one as well, in addition to the private one i confide my soul in. This blog is designed by dal, and of course seeing this design reminds me of her. Y? because when we first got together, i intro the song nymphetamine to her, a cradle song... And that naughty girl went to look for more cradle songs on her own and stumbled upon queen of the throne, which scared her...
Yesterday was a great outlet to vent frustrations, in kickboxing... Got to change a lot of habits i picked up over the past years as a karate-ka.. Went home with a headache, could have been worse if my frendly opponent gave a full force, got caught by a kick to my right temple.
Kicking was alright, just that i have to follow thru the entire kick instead of kick and pull back like in karate. Jabbing needs lots of re-adjusting to. jabbing with body sideways instead of frontal. And of course, its time to get back my fitness. Got tired, put my hands low, and they got my head. But frankly speaking, i am proud of the strength of my turning kick, just that i should follow it thru... Glad to have the chance to train with quite a few great fighters, think i can bring my standards up.
Physical pain is a good way to let me feel good now.. my thumping heart's hurting.. Cos someone is still inside it, but that someone cast me out of her heart half a month ago. Dun know why, training intensively is a good relief, like a drug that takes all the shit away. And pain makes me feel good.. Pain momentarily from kicking the heavy bag, bone clash bone, and the more intense one, kena kick. Pain makes me feel less guilty that my inconsideration led to my wonderful gf's (now ex) misery, and the crumple of our relationship. When i feel pain, i think i deserve it.. Well, i am scum.
